So many new goodies… crystals, a singing bowl, two books, and a tummy full of Thai food… yes yes yes

Back in Oregon— Lightning in a Bottle was challenging, beautiful, magical, reaffirming, legendary, and full of wisdom… indescribable through words alone. Gratitude abounds <3

I feel the pull. My soul wants to expand and reach a higher vibration. I feel as if staying in school while experiencing this pull is going to stunt the development. I feel as if granting it partial attention instead of fully dedicating myself is not paying this transformation the commitment that it deserves and needs to fully unfold. I want to backpack, travel, WWOOF, live on intentional communities, be in nature, and welcome everything that happens along the way. I want to be a snail. I want to know that everything I need is right on my back. I want to feel the weight of anything unnecessary weighing down on me. I want to shed. I want to connect. I want to expand. I want to be…

Perhaps this is what is meant to be and I should honor it fully. I wonder how many other people are feeling this?

Crafts, crafts, crafts, crafts, crafts!! Only practiced poi once, haven’t even picked up a book… oops. Currently working on a tail, suspenders, belt, medicine pouches, wings, and a fuzzy ear hat!! I love summer

Next stone on my wishlist: Tektite!

Tattoos are addicting. I’m getting ahead of myself.

A nest of about 100 teeny-tiny spiders just hatched in the space between my window and the screen… they are bright orange in the sun, so they will probably be brown later. Words can’t express how much I love watching them, but I know that they will grow into big mamas and papas and:

1. I’m afraid most of them won’t find their way out of the space they are in

2. I don’t want any to come into the house and bite me.

I’m thinking of taking a cup, dusting them and their tiny web into it, and dumping them in a bush outside… but I have to do it fast because they are just starting to build their web all over the inside of this window and they will be much harder to gather.

Do you think this is a good option? Any other ideas? What should I do to respect them? (Don’t tell me to kill them, that’s not the solution I’m looking for)

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I wonder what giving birth is like for animals.

Are they intuitively aware that they are going to give birth? I wonder what their consciousness is like during the final months of pregnancy. I wonder if they can sense a change and feel the new bond that is about to be born. I wonder if they are in touch with the fact that they are creating new life.

Imagine a lioness giving birth to her cubs. Usually, she would want to eat something so small and helpless. Instead of using her jaws to kill, she uses them to carry her young. Instead of using her tongue to taste food, she uses it to lick them clean.

I wonder at what point the maternal instinct kicks in. Does it happen before the cubs are born? With many other animals, it happens before they even see their young because they are encapsulated in eggs which they guard with their life. How do they know?

Instinct and intuition are such incredible phenomenon. Nature amazes me.

I’ve showered once in the last month and I feel so beautiful

It appears that the crack in my couch I’ve been sitting on all day is actually a split in the universe that is seeping out little black ants from the future.

You are my friends! My body is your playground, soldiers!! I will come to peace with you and I will not leave until I do so. In the meantime, I will continue to work work work on this essay like each of you are work work working on bringing food to other dimensions that are hidden by my flowery skirt and sweaty skin.

Just don’t go into my panties.

<3

I really like yaks, snails, chipmunks, whale sharks, black panthers, jellyfish, foxes, bunnies, sea dragons, lynxes, and whales. The list could go on and on, but I’ll stop here. What animals do you like?

Good place to look for backpacking backpacks? I am 5’2” and 105 lbs. Purpose would mostly be for farm-hopping/WWOOFing and occasional treks.

Help a sista out?